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	Now, Pope, for Your Penance. Sell Enough Statues at the Vatican to Start a Foundation for All the Victims of Sex Crimes in the Catholic Church By Kay Ebeling City of Angels April 19, 2008 http://cityofangels4.blogspot.com/2008/04/now-pope-for-your-penance-sell-enough.html The Catholic Church has to acknowledge its role in turning sexual predators loose on our society. Instead of criticizing us for our loose morals in America, the Vatican has to start recognizing the residual effects of its own crimes. I was a sexual predator all my life, when I look back on it. I forced men to have sex with me, although I thought it was seduction. So think about it. All 130,000 of us victims of sex crimes in the Catholic Church went into the world with our warped psycho-spiritual-sexual confusion and each of us affected anywhere from three to a hundred to more other people. With all those pedophiles raping boys and girls in Catholic churches, dont you think that enabled and empowered pedophiles all over America? Why do you think we have an epidemic of children being raped even murdered in America today? Maybe its because predator priests got away with it for 50 years and warped our entire society. The only time I stop raging is when I write and post here, knowing someone is reading it vents my rage. But the other day I went ballistic on Sunset Boulevard. A bus went by without stopping and I ran after it and then stood in the street legs bent both arms in the air, flipped the finger with both my hands and screamed, F--- you, f--- you at the driver. Since its LA my behavior went almost unnoticed. Still this is the rage I carry inside, always just under the surface ready to gurgle or burst out. This past week seeing constant looped footage of Benedict with that silly smile on his face didn't help. Considering there are about 130,000 crime victims like me to whom the church has never paid a settlement or even helped to get therapy, or even acknowledged in their statistics -- they only count 13,000 victims, the number of people they've helped. They dont even count the rest of us. Subtract 13,000 from 130,000 and you see there are okay say, 117,000 people out there like me with a lot of unresolved anger that could come out in other ways. The church HAS to do something for ALL the victims. Sell a few statues from the front of the Vatican and set up a foundation for ALL of us. Dont make us go through five years of fighting your attorneys to get help, just set up a foundation for us to go to for grants and help ALL of us and stop pretending this was a small crisis for which you feel shame. It was an epidemic of predators set loose on the American population because they could disguise themselves as priests and YOU, POPE, you are responsible. DO SOMETHING, dont make one more statement to the press, dont visit with one more victim, unless it is to TAKE ACTION. My rage is so bad this week, I was glad to see the character Sugar, or Mr. Chigurh in the movie No Country For Old Men. He was a raging maniac but he could still walk through a drugstore with nobody noticing him. He had this way of walking. So Ive been using my PTSD acquired ability to adopt other peoples persona, and Ive been adopting his manner of gate, the look in his eyes-- Ive been adopting the persona of Mr. Chigurh to maintain my own rage so I can go out in public. Luckily I dont have a telephoto AK47 or whatever that thing was in my back pocket like Sugar does. The church recently acknowledged 13,000 victims of Catholic priests who are sexual predators. Since 1 in 10 come forward the number is more likely 130,000. On top of that since more victims dont come forward because its the Catholic Church and their families still go there, the number is likely much higher than 130,000. Today for the first time I read in mainstream media a quote from an attorney in New York acknowledging that there are a lot of other victims that the church has done nothing for. NOTHING. So when I see a bunch of people reaching out and praising the leader of this church, I start throwing things. That smile, that goofy smile on the Pope's face. Ive used that same smile myself, when I was trying to purposely project happiness, but inside I really wasnt feeling it. His smile said, yes, yes, just smile like me and you too can be like Christ. But he looks like some kind of wood nymph creature what body structure you can imagine under that white dress. Has he ever worn jeans, or done anything a normal person does? Oh right. He's holy. BS, get a job. The Pope was able to say he just found out about how bad the priest sexual predator crimes are. How could he be pope and not know what was going on? I know I'm repeating myself. That's what unresolved anger does to a person. The Catholics are going to hear from all of us over and over and over again, until this gets RESOLVED. The same media who are reporting what the pope says are the ones who told us there WERE weapons of mass destruction in Iraq. It was such a breath of fresh air to read one article last week, in the New York Times, where the reporter didn't just go to SNAP to get a quote. He wrote an entire article about the victims of priest sex crimes and the reporter never went to the professional media statement people, never even mentioned SNAP. It could be a good sign. This one New York Times reporter actually dug a little deeper. He called an attorney not affiliated with SNAP and got a statement from him instead. Its a small step but it's a start. At least E! has stopped using college interns to do my job and I'm working this weekend. I'm about to start transcribing a two hour interview with Charlize Theron. Too bad I'm not gay. Onward. . .
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